I expected to be brought before Him to be measured by the fullness of Jesus Christ. But measurement didn't begin there for me.
Remember this assessment of God's people (and of me) in the first days of my personal journey:
There is no knowledge of You among us; There is no fear of You in our hearts; We do not walk in Your judgments nor remember You in Your ways; We do not seek Your eternal purposes -- the desire of your heart and soul.
At the time I did not recognize them as a measurement. But now God is informing me that I am measured and found deficient in all of the above.
MEASURED AND FOUND DEFICIENT IN KNOWLEDGE
From the Message to the Churches (Handbook 2):
"These are the last days, the kingdom is at hand, and there is no knowledge of God in the land!"
And this advice from the Scriptures:
"Awake to sober sense and your right mind, sin no more for some of you have not the knowledge of God. I say this to your shame."
1 Corinthians 15:32
In my journey through spiritual facts and fiction I learned the reason I am lacking.
"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge..."
Proverbs 1:7
Where is the fear and the trembling among those of us who call on His name? Where is the awe, the bowing of the heart, the bending of the knee before God, the Almighty; the One who before the foundation of the world, reigned in dread lone splendor; the fearsome and awful One who spoke and it was so; the One who opens and no one shuts, who shuts and no one opens; the One who has the final say of who among us will be worthy to inherit the kingdom He has prepared for those who love Him?
"Give instruction to a wise man, and he will be still wiser, teach a a righteous man, and he will increase his learning. The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and the knowledge of God is understanding."
Proverbs 9:9, 10